And here comes my next journal!
I wonder if anyone really reads these. I think so far I've made one end-of-the-year journal every year I was here on Deviantart. I like doing them. New year's is my favourite holiday by far because it gives me a lot of hope to have a whole new empty year ahead of me. Each new year's eve feels like a landmark to me. And every time at the end of december I look back over the year that's gone by and post it here for all of you to read. Last year I said I didn;t have another blog to post it on. This year, I do have one. You'll find it if you visit www.porcupineology-matters.blogspot.com. It's in English. This year I will not give you a cookie if you read this because I hope you still love me enough to read though it without being given sugar in exchange.
Let's see if I can remember doing awesome things this year.

I used to work at a bookstore. I don't anymore: they've not called for me since somewhere in february. I remember I had to unload a lot of valentine's day cards. So I quit working for a while and enjoyed myself as spring came along. The Macbeth play came along pretty nicely. I finished a big, important project on Lewis Carroll together with my friend Laura. I played music at my school on several occasions. I studied for my final exams and hooray, I finished my senior year in secondary school! I failed the exam for advanced french I took, which was a shame, but only by a few points, so well. Along came summer: i took a trip to antwerp with one of my best friends, back in time to get my diploma. Went to Budapest with my dad. I got a job at Ikea for summer. I quite enjoyed working there exept for the ages I spent behind the cash register. I went to london with 3 of my best friends and enjoyed it so much There was an introduction period for students starting university or college in Utrecht, which lasted 4 days and which I attended. It was a lot of fun. Afterwards, I went to Texel, an island in the north of the Netherlands, together with my boyfriend.

Then there was the end of summer vacation and the beginning of university. About a week was spent during an introduction to the course I'm taking, where I've met some nice people. So well, I babbled on like that. I became a member of a kind of sorority-thing but only much cooler. The introduction to that lasted 3 weeks and was a lot of fun, I made a whole lot of new friends.

So, well. Univerisity. I believe I chose the wrong course so I am going to quit the course I'm taking now and work till september, when I'll be starting a course in English. Seems to fit me so much better. I moved out of my parent's house and into a house in Utrecht with 4 people I don't know but who are still really nice. In the meanwhile I am still a bit worried about my lack of a real hobby or passion. I don't really know what to do about it. I could pick up a sport but sports cost money. I could start running but I really hate running. Swimming I like but I would need to pay for every time I take a swim. I could also keep myself busy by studying things like poetry, film or history or something. I have taken up a course in songwriting, which I still find pretty difficult. I would like to be good at that. I would like to find something to do, to keep me busy, that makes me feel 'cool' and complete, the way playing guitar and singing used to before it stopped being new. I hope to find something like this next year.

What I miss most from the beginning of this year is how easy life was when I was still in school. It was so easy to not feel purposeless, I would spend the biggest part of my day at school with all the good friends I have there. It was very, very easy to get through a day and feel like you've made a lot of it. It's harder these days, especially if you don't have a 'thing' to do. University is a lot more challenging because it gives me the oppertunity to socialise with lots of different types of people. I really enjoy doing that, fortunately.

I got a new job at a callcenter. I've made lots of new friends and I'm getting along very well with the people I work with. I am going to enjoy all the time I have next year. I am going to develop myself. I will never be finished of course but I can regain interest in lots of different things. I want to know about the legend of king Arthur. And Beowulf. I want to be able to tell stories and russian fairytales. I want to speak fluent french. I want to learn about architecture and mythology and old films. I fell in love with buster keaton and i want to see more of it. There is so much to learn and to see, you know I needn't ever be bored. And I will do my very best not to be.

So here's to 2011! I wish you all the very best for next year: health, love, peace and all that shit.

See you next year.